You're Gonna Learn Someday

It's tough,
no doubt about it,
to walk straight
when all you
do is stare
at the cracks
in the cement.

If I never
opened my mouth,
or committed
words to a page,
I would never
again be tried
for a false or hurtful
statement.

I clog my ears
with gossip,
I stuff my shoes
with the rocks
I have thrown.
I rub my eyes
down to nubs,
trying to erase
all the trouble
I have caused.

I fall
through the holes
formed from
when I busted
my body open,
hoping to find
the piece of me
that I lost.

It's gonna take some time
to give back the time
in the best way I know how.

I'm gonna figure out how
to quit missing what I gave up,
quit missing this moment now.

One day
I'm gonna learn,
when push
comes to shove,
what it really means
to love.