Wednesday, May 31, 2017

downhill

i can grow from this
and i will absorb
this life into my
bloodstream so
it follows me
forever

my heart will
roll
roll
roll
with fervent
velocity

full of
the ones
i have
loved

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

wart of gold

his sun-spotted veneer chips ~ toxins bleed out the precipice ~ minuscule interruptions embolden themselves to turn back minute hands ~ and go back for seconds ~ he wakes without synthetics ~ he wakes demurring over vanished dreams ~ and wishes the pain of projecting was easier to bear ~ ancillary existences are diced to dust ~ rearing up like the spray of a cliff-bound wave ~ would it be easier to walk away if there was rift ~ emergency exits ~ third-wave kisses ~ all those existential signs of a hope wrung from the soaking rag of radiant intervention ~ he disavows connection where there is sufficient proof of purpose ~ disassembles complexity ~ splayed into heartscratch hopscotch ~ bouncing vanity reflective of the goal ~ goal he ever martyred ~ goal he's been bartering for ~ for though he sees them oscillate on the soft-focus freeway like emergency lights ~ all he can fight is for someone to hold

Monday, May 29, 2017

remnants of bliss in a dimly-lit theater

whispering
jokes i 
had already
told you
embedded
in the dark
enraptured
by the 
soclose
smell
of you
seeing us
on that 
screen 
only two 
months 
have passed
but two
months too
long i think
of it in
passing
dissolving
like a dream

Sunday, May 28, 2017

light up

onions gimme the spins
and smoking after a win
was better once but still
it’s silkier than gin

and i slip no pill
but for my split will
embroiled in a daze
an autonomous chill

delicious malaise
not just a phase
better blame your kin
and blaze

Saturday, May 27, 2017

where'd ya get this hold on me

canyon days
yield no flash
flood but the
blood in my
eyes shot
electrons as
they whizzed
on by collapsing
my energy
which somehow
finds cause
to replenish
itself &
myself &
yourself &
also everyone
we knew & or
are going to know
hope you don't
mind me speaking
from this fanciful
point of view
it's the only way
to handle
falling madly
over you

Friday, May 26, 2017

head splits for more

homestead fingers
tangle up the score

and i hardly know why
except that i am 

an exemplary patient
who giggles when knee

loses all control
the sentenced boulder

rolls rolls rolls
to where we started

a tactical feed 
of the heart

sleepless again
brain sliced julienne

ignoring the phone
as much as i am ignored

by its whimsical absence
of simultaneous response

jettison of desire
outsourced mistrust

mistaking my rust
for a paradigm shift

making a fool of bravery
and underdeveloped storyline

did you think i would mind
being placed in the pocket

of your chaos? 
distance admits admiring

comes more naturally
and let’s say i’m not ready

to make room in this life
the ancient falls every time

Thursday, May 25, 2017

gone for bronze

half of me aches—
the infernal calf
in me wails

with jealousy
for cattle-prod
for bones thrown

on the fire
you must know
how this tanks

my semblance
of good form
sometime you must

choose
but i won’t
flaunt these bruises

you left on my jaw
bone before
leaving me to my

own— vices
jump to comfort—
half of me

winces but 
does not recoil
for chance 

of weathering
your overcast
season

not sure 
what i’m worth
or if we’ll last

to see the earth
implode
this impasse

has rendered 
my compass
cantankerous 

it spins round an round
unable to locate
the direction of us

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

'fraid i can't help but feel

what can i do
if every bone
is busted into
soot?

what can i say
to trample
these embers
underfoot?

what can i make
to be your ship
in an edgeless
sea?

am i that harmless?

what can i do,
o what
can i be
to make you
want me?

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

my heart is baklava

flaky buttery
pangs of
sweetness
infiltrate
nutty
body

my phyllo
center
soaks
overnight
in
its own
emphasis

possibly
i am
cut
into
elegant
diamonds

possibly
you are
plotting
your next
bake sale

i am ribboned
an artisan
recipe
i am deep-set
your excavation
awaits

laid out
in crusted strips
of sugarthought

braille'd
with clumps
of doubt

totally
indefinitely
for your mouth
only

Monday, May 22, 2017

what is a troubadour?

this poem
started as a song:
a kind of phony
symphony

for you see
though i am
no troubadour

i am in trouble

accommodating
measures of rest

into this
turbulent
attempt
at spacial unity

Sunday, May 21, 2017

dish

angel says
your playlists
are an adventure

slides in place
suppose it was
                          seven

forgot why
i was there

to earn
    wait
    be used
    put my self in its place

when the time
is                just right

damn it feels
     good to laugh

Saturday, May 20, 2017

halfyear dream

the way
you talk

signals me
to a shaky
territory

your face
an eclipse

we move
slow-steady 

amenable

pasts and futures
on present
faces

hopes
are often
worth the risk

Friday, May 19, 2017

Bumbling

Brutal 
pollinating of want,

a skin constellation
flickering.

Moment 
of arrested butterfly

so suddenly
stuck with thorns,

a decadence 
delayed. 

Overgrown
shoots bloom and 

fall in bunches, 
diverting nature.

O swept 
incandescence, 

if we were industrious 
as honey, we 

could be happy,
bumbling

through our season,
but reason waits

to see if garments
are as quickly changed

as swarms are charged
by the circuits of rain.

Thursday, May 18, 2017

better days

if you ever need
a sentinel
to guard 
your freedom

if you ever feel
your dreams
are pulled
away

if you ever hear
my voice
lay down
your worries

then don't fear
somehow 
we'll see those 
better days

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

yo lay yo thoughts down

well they say
today's an anniversary
of some game-changing
birth— mine— ain't that sweet,
and what a feat to be kickin'
it besides, alongside
a phantom jar steaming
with condensation of spit,
a self-conscious stack of glass,
a delicious choice laid to rest,
ain't nothin worth quitting
for good. yeah i slip
and writhe and jive
with the titanic questions
that just won't sink:
is this working?
am i sufficiently proud?
am i so allowed?
ICEBERG AHEAD!
i kid. how's your day?
mine's chock full of freedom,
makes me wonder
if every day is my birthday.
gums are sorta inflamed
and my tum's flippin me off
but i'm pretty comfortable
bein this soft. there's a name
hugging my brain
and it's never enough.
but today— today—
ain't no name draggin
me through sweet marshes
of maybes, no smiles
tied with a bow, no, no,
i got the rest of my life
for that shit, today
a much-needed vacation
from thinking about
any of it.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Red Flag

Straitjacket spectres
elicit your time
in the pucker-tongued
language of lime.

Monstrous pillars
splinter to rubble,
burying pathways
in shards of trouble.

That heinous tooth
and poison oak mouth.
Fingers clenching a leash,
eyes flickering south.

Monday, May 15, 2017

there's a nest of starlings in your eye

your darling
eyes
chirping,

wrinkling
skin
with thrill

of feeding,
trilling
their soft

overture
since we
first met.

i watch
with care
should they

tumble
from the nest,
so bright

and small
they huddle,
and when

storms
shake they
splinter

me into
kindling.
their

feathers
reflect
more rays

than my
compromised
eyes

have ever
seen.
and if just

after waking
they
greeted me,

i should
die birdwatching,
happy.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Mama, You're An Ocean

Once you seemed
remote, unparalleled
in ardor, forever
concerned, when
my forehead burned
it was your nest
that staved off
screeching phantoms.

That was when
we were all you had.

Then you got glad,
met a man somehow
worthy, wasted no time
with that life you deserved.

And I saw you give birth.

Sometime later, left—
you moved me in,
even though you knew
what kind of trouble
I was getting in.

And I would walk
wistfully by the wharf,
missing you like I used to
every weekend you were
at work, which you did
so that someday I could walk
wistfully by the wharf.

Mama, your eldest
will always do his bestest
for you, for you.

I love you more than water.

You stay strong when I falter,
and no matter where I go,
I carry your kindness with me.

Wave, wave—
a swollen moon—
pretty soon life
will take me
through the motions.

But will always—forever
be blessed
to be the son of the ocean.

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Merton, Mercy

My inner self 
sequesters health, 
delivers answers
no tongue can unwrap.

Upper shelves
gather dust, willingly.

You shut yourself
away, though still
had things to say.

Made space,
made peace,
made spades
of flying geese.

And followed
them through
the mobius, 
unending whirl
of existence,
which you laid
to rest 

in the silence.

Friday, May 12, 2017

better

who i
have
been
waiting 
for

floats

close

morose

for
a second
thought

asked
how
goes

an
embrace

then 
better now

Thursday, May 11, 2017

third time around

first aspires
to be worst,
unnecessary
violations
for a groggy
kid, they
saddled
up and shot
the horse,
how could
it get much
worse.

second time's
a charm,
only cost
fifty bucks
and a slice
of pride,
gripping
tighter
to the wheel
this time,
trynna
shake off
the haunt
that none o this
is real.

third time's
sure to cause
harm,
but i'll raise
no alarm
so long
as you
keep comin
back to
these failin
arms.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Won't You Rainbow

Seven effortless shades collude
to magnetize you— ambulance red
for parting stiff-necked traffic, an altitude
so ferocious your palpable violet tread
rents me. O striped incline, not even sprites
slashed your shine to ribbons, given your dome
was all they knew. You turn, the blues and whites
of your eyes softening, offering a ride home
again. But when it’s time to go, your indigo
expression hastens the bettering. So I cherish
these burnt orange offerings, though your yellow
vessel floods my temples with nightmarish
ease, and draw the shades which color me clean,
admiring rain that turns all the fields green.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

i'ma crash on your shore

ya know
i told ya
before
how i felt
in the hopes
it would
cast
a spell
over this
storybook

and yeah
it didn't
shake out
like that 
but now
you know

so
maybe 
been
too shy
a little
too severe
in my 
patience

a bit
of a
passive
tactician

when i 
shoulda
been more
ocean
rocking
with wave
after wave

till it
it don't
make sense
to spend 
your life
on the
fence

Monday, May 8, 2017

well aren't we a trifle

lil buddy with the nuts
grabs whatever 
is around

and i am found
on the lip 
of the curb

where i
disturb no one
with my smelly

mistakes
free from
the straitjacket

of here to there
and i don’t
really care

how it sounds
or if my laugh
has gotten

too big
for its britches
i keep building

bridges and 
holding out
for a smidgen

of certainty
the gestalt
melting

into droplets
all
awash

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Down In The Grout

Scrub, love, scrub!
Let's ditch this stand,
gimme your degreaser-
caked hand, flyby
the waste plant,
rid ourselves
of this tedious shell.
Rip, bag, rip,
and spill your contents:
a day's history
in refuse, the butt ends
of bread.
I've a journey ahead,
but would still do
anything
to make life easier
for you,
which by now
you surely must know.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Vibrato

elegant chain of sweet
dismal sighs sweeps
drops of honeyed heat
over moon-singed sheep

harp on this perfectionist
spell-check your sky
signals a flick of the wrist
baits cerulean eyes

it feels better now
the wilting the fasting
it goes down easier now
the flutters never lasting

Friday, May 5, 2017

what you done?

what, you never done a bit of naysaying?
you never threw a pipe between the spokes?
you never suspected something foul?
you never woke up cornered?
never dug your grave?
never shaved your stitch?
or spit wherever you're walking?
never berated your only beloved?
c'mon, sayin' ya never vandalized?
ya never shit all over the surprise?
never swung hard from the precipice?
never bled an itch?
you never overcommitted?
you couldn't admit it?

Thursday, May 4, 2017

givin me cavities

    when
                you said
       i
             had a perfect
   smile

every
     
           
                 
                         tooth

  pulsed
    with
  pleasure

     guess
                     i better
            start flossing
                       better

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Graying

I must be arriving,
for everything behind
has fallen silent.

Trick is,
uncertainty
is all that's certain.

Wheels and arguments
spin with nothing
to gain.

Overwrought,
we purchase what ails
we can afford.

Even gray sky
makes me want
to shut my eyes.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

exit center stage

clouds drift,
unperturbed

eyes resist
another storm
of openings

you would 
think by now
the agendas
would set 
themselves

you would
think 

the cast
would set itself
over broken
tendons

lilting lullaby

protect 
my
interest

Monday, May 1, 2017

We Could Buy The Farm

You let your iridescent nets down,
catching more than intended. My breath's song
uncovered its coda, clamoring to ring
in an era of breathlessness, threshes a lip
between teeth, traces jutted collar-bone
with finger-tip, a child loose on a vibrant farm.

Your future dwells on a foregone farm.
Bottomless reality perpetually lets down.
The grass beneath you has been fed by bone
since before we were born— carbon's swan song
and the quivers you hear are a lower lip,
hung up on the radius of a ring.

From the rafters of the outer ring,
I watch the distant workings of the farm,
where you stand in crowded splendor by the lip
of a small pondlight lowers down
past the cattails, stars thrash their heavy song,
dusting shadow with particles of bone.

You were hardly more than water and bone
I wrung your shoulders, left a ring
of condensation beneath the eyes, a part of the song
you had always passed through. These farm-
hands are happiest when burning down
the barn. Sweat glistens above the lip,

brimming with light. Your holy lip
terrifies, plunges my tongue toward hip-bone
straits. Tastes your water as it drips down
my chin, plucks your immaculate ring
from its altar. I would bet the farm
that once is enough to burn this song

into your body, forging a new song
in the garage of your thunderous lip.
I am rich your presence all the farm
ever needed to carry this satchel of bone
beyond, across the divide, into the ring
where lives are raised to be cut down.

A diaphanous lip woven bone
song in the shape of a luminous ring,
and us on the farm, letting each other down.