Stay Asleep

I'll be sure not to bother you here.
I've been careful
so as not to let the moths and
winged phantoms through.
I hope I don't wake you,
warm like the sun
and breathing so soft.

Nobody knows
that I have slipped in.
I carry no letter
but the words stamped
into the veins
of my wrist, frozen
out of fear.

My disposition
is at an utter standstill.
I would kill
for a guaranteed
psychic reading.
I need to know where I stand.

Lucky for me I know a guy.
He's got a sense of humor,
always teasing me in dreams
of torture tongue
and sauna situations.
We talk in morse code,
through the blips and bleeps
we send each other in sleep.

Sorry to bore you
with the realities of
being an abnormality.
I have strapped myself
to the shelf long past
my expiration date.
I am owed a renewal.
I guess that is my reason
for wanting to see you.

I want so badly
for nothing to happen,
for everything to stop
happening at once.