Unwanted (A Hymn)

All at once, I felt you near.

I missed you for days,
and now, you're here.
Trippin' round in a daze,
stomping every errant blaze.

It was good to see you,
but if I could choose,
I'd go back to missing you,
my dear.

Foolishly I looked your way.
I choked on what I meant to say.

Why do you have to smell so good?
I think I have to leave, at least,
I should.
It was good to hold you.
Never should have told you
'bout all the things I'd do
for you if I could.

Baby, you've got me sleep deprived.
Can't remember the joy of being surprised.
I stretch myself and wait for you to show,
some days not caring enough to grow.
You said you weren't ready for me.
But I'm not even ready for you to be.
Sharing air with you, I don't know what to do,
you make me feel unwanted,
and despairingly free.