just like mine

You ask me to turn off the light

so that the moon can shine

over these scars that you're willing to show me

My heartbeat echoes in my empty stomach.

Snow delicately falls in January

Out on the street where it rains at night

it rains at night

The snow

I wish it would cover the moon,

The snow,

A sliver of the moon is revealed

The silver moon slips underneath the drifting snow

That sliver

is all that's left in the sky

If you look closely enough, you can see me, too

Covered by the snow at night,

Letting your waves wash over me

Saltwater drips from your lips

and my stomach won't make it,

My throat is dry,

and I'm purring

in my dreams

I'm a monster

I'm somewhere in between

friday and saturday.

saturday and sick.

sick and happy.

happy and alive.

alive and the moon.

I'm never here

I'm always standing on the beach,

I'm always going into the forest,

My fingers aren't really writing,

They're intertwined between yours.

I'll dig myself out from this hole of words

using nothing but lips

and tongue,

because now dirt is pouring out of my mouth

and soon comes the ashes

I'm waiting beneath the earth

the crust wasn't hard to burrow in

I can cut yours, if you'd like

My room smells good

but my bed smells better

I've switched pillows and it's getting harder to close my eyes

because we're never here

My heartbeat echoes

as your finger slides across my empty stomach.

I've learned some things since I've last been down this gulch

My lungs are full of air and saliva escapes from the corner of my mouth

I learn quick because I know this feeling and I know you

and somehow I learned to stand

Velvet heartbeats fill the silence,

and I miss your hand on my heart,

but it doesn't matter

that your

lips

&

tears

&

thighs

&

neck

are making me miss

you

because I don't have to dream

The thought of you lives inside me

and we're always here.

Sometimes when I smile,

I cry,

because I no longer have to.

2/10/2009