I LET IT ALL GO

undergoing indescribable
parchment-problems &
(sad) sedation wonder
i plunder my notebook
for a look at my wiser
younger just to have a
good laugh it's been a
while since hearing that
you were here then you
were gone i can't keep
my eyebrows from spiraling
surprise or my salt-globes
from rolling back into the
blackness of the brain-place
where i keep too much space
for what it would be like
to hear you read aloud every
book i ever laid eyes on