snap

and in
that moment
of buzzing

music roared
over the coarse
rage of my
voice

i felt
like an imperial
asshole

like a
capable baby

like ten
thousand dicks

for what reason
did i lose myself
so abruptly
in the torrential
scream of
attitudes

i am so close
to reawakening
what's worst
in me

possibly
it's already
happening

it's not a matter
of keeping
anything
to myself

it's a matter
of posture
and presentation

i need space