Stunlock

i need you forever

tapeworm promise
inching its way
through my ear

your laugh
crinkling loudly
through the phone

i don't even
know what to
feel the adrenaline
of my nine hour
contortion of
a day still
constricting
my breath flow

i don't even know
where these thoughts
are supposed to go

i need you forever

have you any
self-awareness?

does it strike you
that those words
incarcerate me
behind hope-poles
of useless, definitely
worthless imaginings?

imagine you inspected
your sentence before
sentencing me

i need you forever

i need someone
who means it

and i want you
anyway